I should have started this for myself

Having thought to have something like this for long time already... started and stopped... started and stopped. Again and again.

Just intend to put it in English, though my English is poor, not able spell out my feeling so specified and so sharp... but, its fast! fast enough to save my time, and fast enough to capture my wild running thoughts!

Guess after this... I may not have luxury time like this... like this week days... I am going to have a new job again...

Why I mentioned it "again"? Ya ya... I have changed employer for another time... fast enough that some of my friends not even able to follow up with my latest updates...

though... I am going to tell myself... This is the last chance for me to be under employment... If I fail again, shall I start to go for self employed? Or shall I change my job nature?

Anyhow... true heart... I hope that I can stay there long enough... at least to the extend that I can tell myself... It is "long"!

Somehow, I finds that my life stucked here... on board and resign... guess life should move on instead...